un-satisfy my soul

its weird, i was sleeping and in that sleep i was dreaming that i was talking to my gf about something i dont remember but when i was about to fully woke up from my sleep because of the sound of her typing the computer keyboard, this is what i had in my head as if i was still talking to her in my dream:

"what a low-blow if you are a cubs fan! in back-to-back years your two biggest rivals won the world series."

yes its not a dream, its a true fact, that last year the chi-white sox won the pennant and just last night the st. louis cardinals won it over the pine-tar-cheating-pitcher kenny rogers and the detroit tigers.

however, it gives me the push to write my blog again.

i have been hiding from reality. i want to hide from my realization that i have become a cultural christian, which means i live a secular life with only one day out of a week i go to church as only an old habit hard to break. for most population, this way of life is very sufficient. i dont think it will satisfy my soul.