welcome to 2006!

when i was browsing i stumbled upon a song that i really really really like. i listened to it and felt like i was in a trance. and at that very moment i decided that i would look for the 'partitur' of the music, learn, play, and master it to perfection.

but then, the next thing that came to my mind was that i was afraid i would ruin the song for me.

here's the dilemma. if i were to learn the song, then i would have to practice it. lots of it. those aint gonna be pretty. same note same tone same sound same movement same everything over over and over again until i can play it flawlessly (you can guess it, im not the best instrument player). then what if i have mastered it? will i have the exact feeling again whenever i hear the song, like when the first time i hear it or the time i hear it without having to practice it over and over again?

then i realized, that this is a good analogy for people who are afraid to commit. they are not afraid, they just dont want to ruin the song. the song is beautiful and you dont want to destroy it by trying to control it for yourself which btw, youre doing a very bad job anyway. so, just let it be like that... beautiful and free.

note to my gf: this is just a thought, pls dont read to much into it.

welcome to 2006!
(-debussy, claire de lune-)