gone fishing

the big news today, anna nicole smith passed away and guess what in less than 24 hrs, eBay sellers have already put up auctions advertised with the deceased anna to attract more buyers. well, if you want to sell anna nicole related stuff i think now is the right time.

anyway, after learning the death of anna nicole from my gf today and watching reenactment of columbine shootings in history channel, i just realized that there are more important things in life than all the unfortunate events i complaint about yesterday. i am living in borrowed time and i have to use it more wisely. she worked so hard to be where she was (even marrying an 89 years old dude?) and all ended in vanity. what good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul? or what can a man give in exchange for his soul? (matt 16:26) this bible verse just jumps off my mind. those kids who died in vain at columbine high school in the hands of a kid who wore a 'natural selections' t-shirt. i mean, what kind of hope do you have if you teach your kid that you are nothing but a product of natural selection and will all eventually die anyway? actually that was the actual quote from one of the kid who launched that cold mass murder 'we are all gonna die anyway.' there has to be something better in this life.

in response to my gf blog, yesterday the bad gollum showed up in my lil dim corner mind. he terrorized me, accused me as the weakest link, that i let my guard down and look what happen, i shouldnt have listen to nobody but him. i think we all have our own bad gollum in ourself. and he appeared whenever we are down and in loss of our faith. so, when you said i wasnt myself yesterday, you were right. that was just an emergency auto-pilot that i try so hard to overrule with my jesus. i pray the next time i have that 'one of those days', you would see Him rather than gollum.